I just completely give up. No matter what I do, or what I say, or how much effort I put in, I get nothing back - other than the biggest pack of lies going.
I’ve tried so god damn hard to fix things, which is funny because I don’t even know why they were broken in the first place.
Just when I think I’m okay again and am feeling better. I somehow find myself in the same rut I was in as before.
You say you feel so alone and can’t wait to leave this city, yet you’ve pushed away the people (person) who cared the most for you and with no explanation.
I’m fed up of not knowing what I’ve done for things to be like this. But all I know is I really don’t deserve to be feeling this way again.
A “best friend” is supposed to stick by each other through thick and thin, help each other in their lowest points and celebrate with them in their highest. They sure as hell don’t lie to each other or just completely drop each other because they have found a new group of people.
I’ve never felt so alone. Not having a best friend is the most difficult thing. No one to tell when something exciting happens. No one to cry to when you’re feeling low. No one to pop over and see because you know they can help make you feel better regardless of the situation. No one to enjoy the highs and lows with.
You can’t just replace someone who means a lot to you, or someone you care so much about, unless they never really meant anything in the first place.
Growing up together, having so many memories, doing pretty much everything together, being sisters; is now all just gone.
The worst thing is, you really aren’t even bothered in the slightest. I’m fed up of caring and crying, and feeling alone all the time. I’m done with feeling like this.
It’s strange how much of impact one person can make on your life. They make it for a while, just to break it.